30 November running away~
"Wow, i didn’t know we had a lumberjack working for the rennovation company…"
"What’s a lumberjack?"
*Queue several crows flying pass in the background…..
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Geck Ingtereneck! Geck Rit of iur Children!
One day i was driving and the car stereo was on….
"Can’t handle your kids? Why don’t you get broadband? It’ll keep them busy thoughout the holidays. There’s so much you can learn from then net!"
Ah~ Broadband! Something that has begun to grow roots into the daily lives of society.
Wait a minute!? Did the woman just say introduced broadband to a friend so that she use it to get rid of her children!?
WTF!!?!
What are they trying to say!?
Here’s a prediction of the near future….
A 5-year-old runs eargerly to her dad.
Girl : Papa, papa~!!
Dad : Yes Dear?
Girl : What do you and Mami do for fun ah?
Dad : Well, Papa and Mami like to go for movies, and take long walks at waterfront.
Girl : Liddat meh!? Eeeee~~~~ Why papa and mami so old-fashion one…..
Dad : Huh? Liddat also called old-fashioned meh?
Girl : Yaloh~ Coz on the Ingtereneck, we see sooo many uncle aunty play wrestling ah! Then all
uncles and kokos we see play cheat one~! They attached a stick between their legs and
then poke it into the aunty and cheche’s cheebye ah~! And make them all scream in paing
ah! But theng hoh, the Aunty or cheches scream for more woh…..
The dad gets a heart-attack……
Children are very curious!
Curiousity + Internet is not a good combination!
What more to say have an advertisment that encourages parents to get internet, and let their children use it so that they can do something else.
In other words, children use the internet without parental supervision!
Right……ok………
Knowing the nature of kids, they like to learn from what they see on television….
Back in our days, it was Cowboys and Indians, Wearing our underwear outside and pretending to be Superman, or strapping a rotan hamper basket on our backs, and fake weapons screaming out words like "KAWABANGA!" or "DUDE!!!" (ninja turtles loh!).
What will happen if the above was let to happen…..
Imagine parents being called to the pricipal’s office not because they children beat up some poor kid at school, but because he sexually harrassed a female classmate in the school library……
Is this really what you want???
Something SomethingZ | Comments (4)11月29日玛丽亚嘿~！
"你为什么那么针对他？"
一句话，一个模糊的记忆，一画被遗忘的的伤……
我的逃避，我的余恨之歌
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踏不出的一步……
是罢，
时间也许会冲淡一切，但伤的痊愈是要靠面对，不是逃避….
至少，那是我的做人原则之一。
望着手机记录里的那行号码，
要和她从新联络是那么的简单。
一通电话，
一封手机短讯，
都是那么容易完成的事……
我迟疑了……
我们是那么久没说话了…..那么多年了….
大家到底变了多少？
是否可像旭日那样？
不，我知道。
往日已不再。
我们已经无法回到那种感情。
望着亮着蓝色灯的手机。
"keypad Locked"
收进裤袋里……
是乎想把它藏的越深，越好……
28 November hitting the showers…
"Han Han jin Guai~" (hokkien, means: Han Han is such a Good~ boy~!)
"Wa beh guai! Wa Jin Pai!" (Hokkien loh! means: I’m not a good boy! I’m bery bad!)
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Mysterious ways….Mysterious answers…..
i don’t talk much about my own religion.
i don’t comment much about God.
But it’s not because i’m ashame to be a born-Catholic. No, on contrair. i believe in God. i know he’s there. He’s always been there for me.
i don’t bother forcing my religion onto others. i believe that when a person finds himself ready, he will search for the light himself.
with that said.
As i have said. God had always been there for me.
Have you ever felt so lost, so depressed that you get the feeling that your futre will be in total darkness?
Yes, i’ve been there.
Ironic isn’t it? When things go well, God doesn’t come to mind, but when things seem helpless, you cry out for him.
And he always answers, one way or another. You’ve just got to pay attention. Even if it means looking at the simplest things around you.
i couldn’t remember who told me, but i’ve taken those words into life. And yes, i’ve always got answer.
Recently, for some reasons, the memory of the long lost friend crept out off them deep abyss of my mind. And resurrected the monster named "desire". This
The result,
me searching around the internet (as would anyone who knows how to use a browser ) for clues of her existance.
Attempts on friendster prooved useless. Graduates.com failed me as well. Google gave me a name, but of some professional economist.
No, it’s not her, she’s a teacher. And if you knew her like i did, you’d know that she’s not the kind of person to have gone into economics. It’s just not her who she is.
It was a pety attempt. But i guess it was worth a try anyway.
Admitting defeat, i finally turned to God. Not to ask to find her. Only to pray that she has a good and happy life, where ever she was.
Meeting Simon again, almost seemed too much of a coincident. We three (Annie, Simon and i) we quite close back in the day. Asking if he’s seen her was only natural. And he was as clueless as i was and even more surprised when i told him about what i know.
The matter died down after a few days…
Until just now at lunch,
Simon came up calling my name( well, he’s working opposite my office, tend to see him quite often). And what he told me came to me as a shock
"Eh, 你知道吗？ 我那天在MJC看到丽彬！ 他现在在古晋!"
(Eh, know what? I met Annie at MJC the other day! She back in Kuching now!)
And i got her cell-phone number…….
Ack! That's Life! | Comment (0)11月25日走、走、走。。。
悄悄的，我走了。
不帶走一片雲彩……
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兇手就是他…..他就是癌症…….
認識我的人，基本上都會知道我不喜歡看到人抽煙。 我討厭他們的煙，會被風吹向我。 會熏到旁人。
但是，
那並不是最大的理由吧……
身邊的朋友，有許多都有抽煙的。
你們應該也被我勸過吧……別抽了啦….
我也知道我囉嗦，但我可是真的在擔心你們的啊……
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直到今天，我的腦海裏隱約地記得，那最後一幕…….那最後一絲笑……
我對他的映像，第一就想起每次塞在他襯衫的口袋裏，寫著金色"Dunhill"字眼的紅色煙盒。 記得每次見到他，他抱我起來時，都會看到。
記得他身上發出的味道，一聞到，就會認得出是他的獨特味道。 但，那是他身上的煙味啊。
記得每當拿出一根煙時，都會把煙的頭，往煙盒上敲幾下，在放進口，點火。 記得當時瘋狂大力水手的我，一次在他正如此做是，手快把煙從他手中搶過來，放近自己的口中，把自己當成’Popeye the sailorman’!
他那雙深褐色的眼鏡框，有如他的代表物。 他那又瘦又長的臉，藏在那雙厚厚的鏡片后。
記得騎在他電單車後方到處遊覽的感覺。 迎面而來的風吹在自己的臉上。 雙手緊緊擁著他的背，那個安心的感覺。 記得他那頂白色，帶有一行黃綫的單車頭盔。
溫柔疼孫的他，常不忍心看到我們哭著、吵著要買玩具。 因此，長害到自己被女兒罵，說他會把我們疼坏。
對，他就是我的外公，楊德才。
懂事后，雖然聽到很多他年輕時的’所作作爲’。 但在我心中，他永遠是我覺得最好的外公。 也只有那麽的唯一的外公啦~
他年輕的習慣，提早了他的晚年。 六十多嵗時，他已經失去了他的健康。
記得那時我們一家都會到他以外婆住的，在黃土路的屋子，陪他吃飯。
一次，我正陪他在房間吃飯時。 記得那是我是那麽希望他能早日康復。
“公公，菜多次點哦~”
“嗯，是啊，菜多吃了，身體就會越健康哦”
說罷，我看到他那因病痛，是乎消失已久的表情。
外公，他笑了……
那是我最後一次見到他的笑容。
至今，我還記得非常清楚。 一想起它，眼淚就集在眼眶……
不久后……他離開了……
他走的那幕，是永遠無法忘記的……
就是它，
癌症……
就是它奪走了外公……
我年輕的兄弟，
希望你們能回頭吧……
雖然人難免一死，但我不希望在癌症的手中，失去你們…..
24 November Pissing me Off
In the words of wise man
"Go to Hell!!"
In the words of a Wise Woman
"Go Screw Yourself!!!"
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Ask Questions yet neglect answers
"Hey, where are we going?"
"We’re going home…"
"oh okay…"
Ten minutes later…
"Hey, where ae we going?"
"Didn’t i just tell you?"
"No you didn’t!"
"……"
i simply don’t get it all.
Why do people ask certain questions when they don’t have the attention spand to even catch the aswer. It’s very irritating, annoying even.
It’s worse when you and the person had been chatting on MSN about a certain problem and he/she suddenly talking about something else, even though they know it’s not the right time to change the subject.
i know i’m very fussy about this.
But i guess i was brought-up upon the belief and tradition that it’s only polite to pay attention when others are speaking to you.
And failing to do this would have yourself called
"Boh Ka Si" (in hokkien. Means not being taught right/ill-mannered)
That, is something you do not ever want to be called, as it not only aims at you, it aims at your parents as well. And unless you really despise you parents, maybe because the tortured you or raped you or whatever, you won’t want to be called that as well.
i have no idea how someone could fail to forget something important, even after being constantly reminded about it ever so often.
i’m old-fashioned. i still believe that MORALS are in order to become a better person. To become a Person even!
Some Philosophy | Comments (2)23 November skipping along
"You have the freedom of speech,
but anything you say can and will be used in court……"
ah~ sweet Irony once more…..
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Honey, sorry but I’m a guy…..
Picture this……
After much strife, you finally found someone whom you love and want to spend you live with…
The day finally came that you both take you vowes to be with each other forever.
And on your wedding night, when things were getting intimate….she says,
"Honey, I’ve got something to tell you…….I used to be a man……"
Right, having that said…
It’s frightening to see what plastic surgery can actually do these days. To think this skill began as a method of altering the human face, to make it better.
now, with financial ability, you can transform yourself completely into another gender.
Wonder what goes through the minds of these transexual when they’re in the operating room, having their ‘little-friend’ cut off….
Doctor: Scissors…
Nurse: Here, doctor.
*Snip! Snip!
Transexual: Oh, there it goes….no turning back now….
*and male portion of the crowd goes,"Owwww….That’s gotta hurt
*penises suddenly shrink….
frankly, i don’t care what think or says about how we should accept them and all, i despise transexual. The idea of changing you sex just disgusts me.
Discrimination? Yes i guess you can say that.
i may not be a faithful man. But i’ve always believed in God. i Am, afterall, a born Catholic.
And i think it’s a privilage that He made us what we are. i also think it’s blasphemy to undo what He has done.
Yes, and by that, i mean cutting off that little friend of yours.
It’s REDICULAS!!!!
"Oh, I was born with a female soul, therefore I have the right to change my body!"
"Oh, I’ve found it easier to be with people of the same sex…"
"Oh, I’m in love with another guy! He’s my soulmate!"
Yeah, Right!
Want to know what i think? Excuses! Excuses! Excuses!!!
Right, female soul!? How can you tell? Cause you think you’d look better in a dress rather than shirt and slacks?? Or is it because you do more feminime things than musculine things?? So what!? Guys can do many things girls can do too, and vice versa. That’s still not a reason to cut off That part of your body!
And Pu-leEEEESSSSE! Getting along better with people of the same sex? Because they understand you?? That’s just down-right Generalising! Just because you’ve met a few people of the opposite sex, whom by chance, do not understand you or think like you, doesn’t mean that the entire Sex is like that!
Want to know why people stay together for the rest of their lives?
Because they’ve all gone throught their shares of meeting the wrong people and finally they found each other! And at the end of the day, they know they’ve picked the right person cause they know how much they’ve worked hard for it.
Love is not, and never finding the right person in the blink of an eye! Well, for most people that is!
Just because someone of the same sex understands you more doesn’t mean that you won’t meet your soulmate, in a different gender, in the future! It’s not an excuse for you go and cut off your little friend!
Yet, people actually Do it! Losers! Courage my Ass! It may take a lot of courage to go through sergery, and to face the world in that ‘New‘ look (yes and i know it’s because there are people like me!). But haven’t you noticed? You’ve Lost the Courage to face the world for who you were born to be, a.k.a Who you REALLY ARE!
Something SomethingZ | Comments (5)11月22日是什麽？
Pick up the phone
Operator: Hello, ABX courier service. How may I help you?
Idiot: Hello ABX? Yes, i’m calling over from UCS. I have a package here. Could you send someone over to College it?
then i went
"Doh! Why the hell did i just say College!?" *smacks own face…..
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什麽嘛……
某天，跟某人在看電視正上影的韓劇。 看到戯中的一位男主角偶然碰見正在和自己交往，又非常深愛的女人和另一個男人在一起出現(也是男主角)。 一看到這一幕，他二話不説，掉頭就跑。
那個某人忽然冒出一句：
"哎喲，這個男人，幹嗎那麽小氣，那麽美肚量呢？"
耶！？ 我聼了，睜大的眼睛，瞪著她。
"幹嗎那樣瞪著我啊？"
"你呀，沒式過那種滋味，就別隨便說嘛……"
也許你曾經式過，也許不成吧……
說什麽？
就是，
當你喜歡上某一個人，或是愛上某一個人時，卻發現他心中還有另一個人。 而那個人，又是你的好兄弟/好姐妹。 但他卻沒在身旁。 於是，你不顧一切，拼了命去追隨他。 你為他付出，你為他犧牲。
日子一天，一天過。
你們的感情越來越好，越來越深。
就在樣樣都進展得很順利時，他喜歡的那個，忽然回來了。 他的心又開始動搖，偏向這位兄弟/姐妹。
頓時，又發現你的好友也一直喜歡著他。
你有因爲重視友情，有不想放手，心裏也一直在掙扎。
結果，你看到他和好友過得比和自己在一起快樂。
又有一次，你們約會的時間，他沒出現。 你擔心的到他的家門口等他。
天下雨了……他還沒回來……
你卻擔心地在雨中等待……
他卻和你的好友一起出現，兩個人在用同一件外套遮雨……
看到這一幕，是如何的痛？ 你能想像嗎？
Ack! That's Life! | Comment (0)20 November full of it….
Aesthetic Shit!
just another normal Sunday like any other……
Right?
i guess so….
Spent almost the whole day re organizing my room…..
not to mention give it a much needed cleaning…..
i’m a typical guy……room gets messy after a while……..
and besides the dust was killing me……
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so i was happily cleaning away,
moving everything around,
vacumning-up all the dust….
then Fify did something she hadn’t done for ages……
(Fify’s my 13-year-old Shih Tzu by the way…that’s like 91 human years!)
she took a crap in my dad’s study…….
Crystalcrismoon witnessed the whole thing and she was like
"OH GOSH! FIFY!!! NOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!"
……too late…….thus the bomb was dropped……….
Great! More work!
it was not until i took another glance of the discharge that i noticed something really amusing!
at first….i thought it looked something like the Leaning Tower of Pisa….
So Crystalcrismoon suggested that i take a picture of it……
and so i did…….(right, you’d probably think i’m nuts….wait for it…..)
and later….i noticed it looked like something even MORE INTERESTING!!!!!
and i was like,
"WHOLY CRAP! IT LOOKS LIKE A….."
Well you be the judge…..
Warning: the following picture is not suitable for viewer who are eating, just ate, has issues with droppings, or is feeling unwell…….
You were warned…..
3
2
1
0
oh gosh……it’s a………
(a Hint…..it’s a Male……)
18 November on leave at HomE~~
the irony of a workoholic…
when you’re at work, all you can do is think about is going home….
when you’re on leave at home, you’re thinking about what you’re missing at work….
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…Helpless…..
Remember how we’ve always been told, or how we always remind ourselves that the outcome of many things is due to the choices we make and we can always make a difference if we chose to do something about it.
well, in someways, it’s true….
but then again, there are times that not even the choices we make can change anything.
why?
cause there are just somethings that are out of the power of us, puny humans.
i’ve feeling rather helpless lately……my life as itself is going very well. But things were changing around me. For those who know me and know where i live, would know that there’s a small patch of forest behind my house. To me it’s been there as long as i can remember. i, litereally, grew up looking at the lush green leaves of the trees and hum a tune to the swaying branches on a windy day.
i also remember the forest fire that happened not so long ago, that burnt almost half the trees to a crisp. Yet everything managed to grow back within a shorter time than anticipated…..
There were times in life that i felt sad, lost and depress and i would stare out my bedroom window at tree tops. And it always seemed to be a windy day everytime i did it. It would almost seemed as if the trees felt my sadness and will try their best to comfort me by waving their leaves around, as if doing a dance of encouragement……
maybe i’m just dilusional…..
but it never failed to make me feel better….
Then, came then fateful day of Mondy, 14 November 2005.
Everything seemed the same the particular morning. i was on my way to work as i took a glance at the swaying branches as i closed the window to my room. It almost felt like the trees were waving ‘goodbye’ to me, sending me off to another day at the office.
So the day went on as usual. And soon afterwards, it was over. i was home again. Everything was as normal as anyday. Until i finally opened the backdoor to my house and looked out.
It was gone……the sight that i’ve came to know…..the trees that i’ve grown to love…….all gone…..
My heart fell……as i gazed over the patch of ground with remains of fallen trees. And not fall away, the stood the monster that had done all this distrction……the Bulldozer……..
Though, i’ve always knew the day will come that this little forest will be cleared to make way for new houses. Yet it’s still painful to see it happen so soon.
It’s even more painful when you know you are powerless to stop it…..
It’s all gone now……the trees…..the leaves……the vines…….the dances……the soothing sound of leaves in the wind…….the comforting waves of branches……all gone……
Fallen victim to a developing world…….engulfed by the monster name ‘Development’…..
Ack! That's Life! | Comment (0)11月16日是農曆十五耶~
Before exam….
"Eh, Boy~ u know ah! this is very good wan ah! Pig braing iz Braing food ah! If you eat it ah, you brainG become super good ah! Cang lememgbele evelything wan!"
After results released…
"Walau eh! How you go exam wan ah!? Why get this kind of lesults also got wang!? You really Du Nao (Pig brain) ah!!!!"
Ah, the irony….
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知足常樂乃不進步也
記得常常都會聽到長輩對著我們說
"做人,要懂得知足常樂! 不要對事情太執著。"
我們聼了也一直覺得很有道理吧。 心裏想:"對呀，我們都應該那樣。 不可貪心。"
不過，
曾經試著挑戰這個觀點嗎？
難道長輩的觀點都一定是對的嗎？
我啊，倒不覺得吧……
爲什麽呢？
知足常樂，真是一個很樂觀的觀點。 要解釋的話，它的意思是人縂要學會知足，才能夠擁有快樂的日子。
讓我們來換個角度來看看吧……
好吧，
我們非常滿足自己想在的狀況。
的確，我們每天都過得很開心，很輕鬆。
同時，
身旁的世界都在改變著。
每個人，
每樣事情，
都在一步一步的進步著。
然而，
活在自我滿足的生活中的自己，
爲了不讓自己感到難過而忽略了身旁所在發生的事情、改變。
一直不願意拿自己和其他人來做比較…..
因爲，
人比人，氣死人嘛……
不是嗎？
不過，有沒有想過，如果我們不拿自己來和其他人作作比較，又怎能知道自己到底在社會中，站在哪個階級呢？ 又怎麽知道自己是否還跟得上社會潮流嗎？
當我們知足常樂時，我們不就失去了力求上進的心，對自己的要求了嗎？
如果我們真得如此，我們又一天正會發現， 身邊的人一直都在慢慢裏我們而去。 自己卻還站在原地，沒有任何的長進。 一直沒有成長。
記得我們上中學華文的第一課，就是《不怕慢，只怕站》。 知足常樂，不就等於所謂的‘站’著了嗎？
Some Philosophy | Comment (0)