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最近常在 Hitz.fm 聽到 DIGI 的廣告……

"The right 8 people couold help you focus…..blah blah blahbbb"
(後面說什麽我也忘了….)

如果事情發生在我的身上，情況也許會是這樣的……

我        ：　“死！忘了今天是交往紀念日！豬豬一定不會放過我！怎辦？”
朋友　Ａ：　“呵呵！你完了！”
朋友　Ｂ：　“放心，我們一定會幫你登報子的。”
朋友　Ｃ：　“What the heck are you saying, Babe?  You know I don’t speak mandarin~!”
朋友　Ｄ：    “你是誰？”
朋友　Ｅ：   “咦～～～～～～～～原來你叫她　‘豬豬’～～～～肉麻死了～～～”
朋友　Ｆ：    “一句話－吃自己！”
朋友　Ｇ：    “哈哈！她殺你的當而，記得跟我說哦！我幫你拍照留念！”
朋友　Ｈ：   “The Digi Number That you’ve dail, cannot be reached.  Please Try again later…”
我          ：    “．．．．．．”

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

我還是不想過年．．．．．．（二）

昨晚，朋友的生日把好幾個已經很久沒看到的面孔找出來了。　

終于開始有新年的感覺啦．．．．．
出國升學的朋友都陸陸續續回到古晉。　總算找人出來喝茶也會比較熱鬧了。

雖然平時的我，不怎麽喜歡太熱鬧的場合。　但，當能和那麽多好久不見的朋友相聚在一起時，也滿難得的。　這種時候，我最嚮往的就是看到大家的改變。　

有的人還還是一個樣子沒變。　有的卻變得有如判若兩人般。

雖然今年沒什麽心情過年，但至少看到朋友都囘來了，會感到一些溫馨。

他們在打算新年一起出來拜年的時候，只見我靜靜坐在一旁。　擺出一個最勉強的苦笑。　沒有人會注意到罷．．．．．．

1月25日肚子在叫。。。

我還是不想過年……

新年到快到啦…….
到處都在播新年歌…..
開收音機就聽到…..

“。。。。醒不來啊！醒不來啊！大廳放棺材！。。。。新年到咱們大火災。。。。。”

好恐怖的新年……
真的是
禍不單行…..

1月24日的橘柑仔。。。

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恭喜發財！
老人院的住客增加了一半……

萬事如意！
華裔少年的助學金又討不成……

可笑, 可笑哀…..

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過年前夕的告白

新年又要到了。 以往，都會很嚮往這天的到來。
這時候……
友人都會回來，相聚拜年。
紅包壓歲錢多的可以買一部新的電腦。
除夕夜的煙花大會，總是那麽的熱鬧。
難得有假期可以在家裏休息。
累積幾年的賀嵗片在電視上播了又播。
除夕前，家庭一同洗地板。
幫忙準備團圓飯。

每年到這時分，心情都會越來越興奮……

今年，我看又會重演同樣的情形罷……

只是，今年的我，不怎麽想過這大肥年。
也許是找不到什麽值得慶祝的理由？
也許是因爲家中少了一員罷……
或是因爲覺得孤單？

我也不清楚……

總之，就是不怎麽想過新年……

23 January and all animals are equal…

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"i had fever….so i eat medic"
"er….i didn’t know you were a cannibal……"

say it with me…
M-E-D-I-C-I-N-E
Medicine…..

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You’re not there…

Woke up this morning, like any other
But felt it was different
cause
you’re not there,
you’re not there….

i took bath and i brushed my teeth
When i opened my door
But
you’re not there,
you’re not there…

i got into my car and i drove out my gate
when i drove down my lane i noticed
you’re not there,
you’re not there….

This loneliness i feel is
eating me up inside…
i’m on the verge of crying
yet no tears fell from my eyes…

i tell myself that
it’s only for a while..
but when minits feels like eons
i find it hard to smile…

While others around are smiling
i’m feel alone and grey…
cause
you’re not there,
you’re not there….

i try to keep my mind busy
i sleep when i can’t…
cause
you’re not there,
you’re not there…

yeah,
you’re not there
you’re not there
you’re not there….

20 January when life seems grey…

i remember the feeling of the last time i stroke…..or rather nudged her lifeless body in her kitchen….the feeling of warmth slowly leaving it…..

……it haunts me still…….

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Grey spot while red it should…..

i know that i’m actually making a big fuss about this matter.  i usually don’t like to, but in this case, i don’t really care…..

Chinese New Year is just around the corner….yet this year, my life seems grey…..usually things would start to light-up around this time.  But i guess i just bring myself to lift my spirits up…..

…..it’s a sad time for me……

i say thanks to all the friends that had tried to cheer me up.  i love you all.  You all know that i’ll be okay.  i always pull through…..

Rita, a.k.a. crystalcrismoon, will be returning to her hometown of Bintulu tomorrow morning, to escape from my reign of terror to celebrate Chinese New Year with her family.  And with my parents always busy with church work and other obligations, means i see a time of solitarity and loneliness ahead……

i’ve tasted loneliness before….but back then, Fifi was around.  And i could always count on her to follow me around the house, watching my every move.

Now that she’s gone….i can’t help wondering how different things will be……

"Oh let it go already!"

i admit i still learning to cope with reality here.  But the thought of having to place my memory of Fifi onto the shelf where most of my memories of my other departed pets are kept……..nearly forgotten…….it scares me…..she deserves better than that…….

19 January still in mourn…..

My Play-time Partner

i remember wrapping her up with my blanket and she’d stick her head out like this…..

18 January …

Story of Boy and his Friend….

To many in my family, i seemed rather fearless.  Many of times, i was the one leading the crowd.  Many see me the kid that dared to try many crazy things.

However, that wasn’t absolutely true.  i was actually the kid that was afraid of the dark.  i was the kid that feared to take a bath by myself after watching "Jaws".  i was the kid that dreaded being home alone for i was afraid that i might see ghosts….

But given the situation, i had to face those things i fear…..

Then one evening when i got home from school.  A day like any other.  Nothing seemed different on the way home.  Right until i finally got home and saw something that made me shout with excitement.  Dad had brought home a fluffy little Shih Tzu!

We all agreed on the name "Fifi".

Not long after Fifi came in, my Bro went off to the States to further his studies.  Back home, my parents were at work most of day, which meant i was often left alone at home to fend for myself.  i had friends living nearby, but they had their tuition to go to as well. 

As a result, Fifi would accompany me whenever the i was home alone.  She would follow me around the house, and sit next to me while i watched television.  i would stroke he fur and she’d ‘Bath’ my feet with her tongue.  At times, i would run around the house and she’d chase me.  We had much fun.

When i finally leant about the wonderful gift of Deep Though, i’d spend my lazy Sunday afternoon on my veranda thinking about many things.  Fifi loved barking from the veranda.  She lie flat on her belly while i sat, leaning against the wall.

Back then, Fifi slept in my room.  i felt safe at the thought that she was there, accompanying me in the big, dark room which i was moved into.  She had her own little matress under my bed.  When the holidays came around, i’d sleep till the late hours of morning.  Many times, Fifi would wake me up, barking and scratching at my bed side.

Up till the time when my finals came, i’d isolate myself from the rest of the world.  Being as faithful as she was, Fifi would follow me and lie by my side with i cramped all the rediculous information into this tiny brain of mine….She would lie quietly infront of my fan until i made a move.  At times when i felt stressed, i’d stroke her a bit so that my brain wouldn’t explode.

In a way, she was My friend.  Well, up till Feeding time that is.  Dad’s her best friend at feeding  time.  Often when we went out, we’d return to see her with one of my dirty laundry or my tower. 

She was a Holy Dog.  There was a time that my little family would get together and say the rosary.  She was always sitting with us quietly when the "Our Father"-s and "Hail Mary"-s were recited.  Only until after the whole prayer session would she come up to us asking to me troked….

Balloons were her favorite ‘prey’.  Blow a balloon up and she’d spend hours chasing it around the house.  Leaping and jumping to knock the balloon as it hoovers around.  Everytime, it’ll end with a ‘POP!’ with her holding a schredded balloon in her jaws.

Sad to say that she was a bit neglected when we all grew up and began our own lives.  The only time she’d spend with us was at dinner and when we were watching television.

i knew the day would come for her to leave us, but now that she’s gone….i can’t help feeling that something that’s supposed to be there, isn’t.  i guess a part of me just left with her….i miss her…alot……

15 January after the storm…

In loving Remembrance of Fify:
Pet, Companion and Family….

Yesterday, 14 January 2006, was a sad, sad moment for my family…..

this is Fify

She passed on sometime around 9pm…..She was 14.  Equivalent to 98 in human years….

For those who knows me personally, some had gotten acquainted with this cute little creature…

She came to us one fateful day in 1992.  It was the first time the family had ever decided to keep a "toy-dog".  And it was an even bigger leap deciding to keep her in the house.  But there’s a reason for it though…

She could do this……

i know it’s no surprise that many breeds of dogs can do it as well.  But to us, it was a very amazing site.  Especially when she does it whenever told or whenever she’s begging for food.  Indeed, this little thing was clearly smarter than any of the Dogs my family had kept before.

She’d been in the house so long, we treated her as family, and apparently, she’d forgotten the fact that she’s actually a dog (maybe).  But if wasn’t hard for us to treat almost human, considering how human she can Be at times.  For instance: she knows how to say she’s sorry when she did something wrong……

"look at me, i’m Mozart!"

me:"What have you been up too?"
Fify:"Oh, nothing…..just pee-ed on you bed that’s all…"

During the day, while everyone is out at school/work, she would wait patiently for us to come home…

Whenever i went out, she’d be waiting for me to come home at the gate….

And after a hard day at school, coming always seemed relieving…..Especially when you see this….

Welcoming us home with a smile and a cute pose was her specialty…

After my bro went to the States, she was the one always keeping me company at home….and i was indeed home alone very often then.  She was there when i sad and shared my joy when i was happy…She was more than just a pet to me.  She helped me past my hardest times…..  She was my best companion.  My sister.

Now she’s probably eating out of a golden doggy-dish up there in heaven….  i sure hope she knows that she will be missed here……

Farewell……Fify….Pet…..Friend……Family……..

13 January an it’s Friday! Cool!

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The favorite thing about Chinese New Year when you’re 12

ANGPOW~!!!!!!

The mose horrific think about Chinese New Year when you’re 24….

Angpow………

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A post on Friday the 13th!

Wow!  i didn’t even notice it this morning, or yesterday.  Usually i’d be very thrilled about this day and would even make a mark on my calender. 

You’ve all heard it before.  It is said that this day is the unluckiest day of the year.  Sometimes it even comes twice in a year. 

Here a list of what i know about the don’t-s of Friday the 13th:

    -Walk under a ladder
    -let a black cat walk across your path
    -break a mirror
    -……

Okay, okay so i don’t know much about it.  Buy hey, even non-Christians celebrate the jolly holiday of Christmas these days.  And i bet a lot of them don’t even know what the day really means.

Anyways, i’ve heard some interesting things about this day.  One rumour i heard, is to place your Ole Shoes under you pillow and sleep on them.  And those have to be a pair of shoes which are beyond use/repair.  i hear by doing that, you will dream about the future.  A premonition. 

So,  it was back in high School when i hear about this, and i bet i’m not the only one who did it.  Yes, i did it.  i was young and naive……and sure enough that night i had a dream-filled night.  Frankly, i think it was because i could feel the shoe under my pillow, which cause discomfort.  Thus enters the dream.  A dream that i still remember today.

i remember making myself through the rubble of a certain building…..the thing that i could remember seeing were remains of the roof.  And i felt that i knew it just happened.

Then came the funny part….

The next day, a storm blew up in our little town of Kuching.  Trees fell.  Brunches Broke.  Electrical wires snapped.  And apparently, the Roof of Chung Hua Middle Shool No.1 decided to take some flying lessons.

Yes!  The Roof Was Flying!

De-javu moment……

So if you see me today, be sure to Run!  Don’t let little me Cross you Little o’ Path and give you little o’ bad Luck~

1月12日是零六年第一次

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Everywhere we you’d see/hear infomercials about buying originals.  Or how

"Buy Original, Be Original"

Right……well, if the gahmen would raise our salary a but, or drop oil prices a bit…..i’d bet more people would do it.

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成熟與成長

有的人也許會思考這方面的事，有的人不會。  也有的人選擇逃避不想面對它。  與其讓自己為這種事情而煩惱，不如完全不管它。

順其自然

或許罷……

人類，其實是非常驕傲的動物。  都不肯承認，我們其實都不夠成熟……

難道，你真的能夠判定，某某人很幼稚，又某某人很無知嗎？

我都是不願意看見鏡真是的自己。  都不願意承認自己的幼稚。 

既然是那樣，那我們又怎能說自己有權力指點別人，說他們幼稚呢？

以前常常會聽到或面對這樣的對話……

“幼稚！”
“你很成熟嗎？”
“至少比你成熟……”

哎……那麽請問你是用什麽來衡量所謂的“成熟度”？

許多人往往都會動不動就臭駡人傢“幼稚！”。  甚至，有些人竟還把事情閙得更大。 

其實，
爲了這點小事情，而小不忍則亂大謀，豈不是更幼稚嗎？
是這樣的話，到底是誰才算幼稚哦？

其實，
當我們把“幼稚”這字眼吐出口時，就顯得我們才是最幼稚的。。。。

有些人，動作、舉動向小孩子，或是對某些事情的看法會比較向小孩，比較天真。  那並不代表其他人有說他“幼稚”的權力。  説不定，他在其他方面還比其他人更成熟。  又或許他只是扮天真、裝無知而已。

你又怎麼知道？
古人的確是有這麽的說過罷……
“知人知面不知心”